Jumping Off the Merry Go Round of Love by Tracy Thompson

Very gleefully I Jumped onto your merry go round of LOVE

Because I missed that loving merry go round feeling

You see it has been many years since I last frolicked in the playground~~I thought my merry go round days were finished but then you came along~~calling me darling, honey, baby and my Queen~~soon I was happily spinning round and round

At first it was exhilarating, exciting, and fun

I thought I must be dreaming, I’m living a life of fantasy

But then you kept jumping off and on, causing things to spin out of control

You promised me that you’d slow it down so we could join one day sharing that pretty painted horse beside you

That we would jump off holding hands all at once very soon, you promised

We talked about going to another playground and getting a merry go round of our own

One of those times we spun around so fast, and I woke up quite suddenly being flung from the platform unable to hang on with my bare hands

I tried desperately to hold on tight to those handlebars

My grip loosening from the pressure I had to let go and away I flew off the merry go round onto the gravel alone, my heart scraped, and my ego bruised

While on the ground my mind clearing again your merry go round losing its intrigue, the feeling I once had for your merry go round I sadly lost

My balance restored; my eyes open wide revealing so many hidden things, the clouds of illusion that blinded me from seeing the fiberglass painted horses

You asked me to jump back onto your merry go round but it seems broken now, the platform unmoveable, the music not playing the same songs

There isn’t the carefree feeling that once was shared~~the trust I had in the platform, the melodic music, the beauty of the many painted horses

Things have changed

I have changed

I no longer need that merry go round of love to excite me anymore

I found myself in my very own playground of Love

Quite surprisingly I fell in love with myself

and this time the playground is so Free that it is like riding a Pegasus into the sky as I am free to LOVE again!